Dienstag, 22. Mai 2012

You got me and that makes me sick

 I don't know the last time I felt like this. It's ridiculous, I don't know you much at all, I don't know what it feels like to wake up beside you and just mentoined 'he's the one I love', I don't know your favorite places, I don't know your favourite movies, but I want to. More than anything else in the world. I go to sleep thinking about you, I wake up thinking about you. I have to stop myself filling all the spaces in between with thoughts of you too, because it cripples me that you probably don't feel anything even nearly the same for me. And that hurts so badly. We had a wonderful time but now for some reason everything changed. I wish I know why. I would do anything to go back in time.

Even though this is one of the most confidence shattering experiences of my life so far, I am so glad I met you. It doesn't matter that I can't believe what you tell me, you have still made me the happiest girl, even if it was only for moment. You amaze me, truly. You are so clever, strong and insightful, regardless of how you feel about yourself. I know you're insecure, but I think you are beautiful. You are everything you should be, I wish you could believe me. I want to scream it out loudly because all I want this.

I know I am clinging. Clinging to something other people, even you, would probably perceive as nothing. I know its because I am so desperate for someone to fix me, to want to fix me. I have probably built this all up so far I can barely see what's actually happening anymore. Maybe I'm simply infatuated by the idea of you; what you could mean to me. Regardless, this is still how I feel, I am still intoxicated by you.

No one can say what will happen but I hope that even this has a happy end for you and me.
I miss your voice, your touch and your lips. I am sorry that I behave like a teen loves his or her idol but I cant stop.


Montag, 14. Mai 2012

Baby, can you see through the tears?

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more
Than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

Mittwoch, 9. Mai 2012

Sleep well, Darling

Zusammengekuschelt liegen wir nebeneinander.
Ich spüre Deinen Atem in meinem Nacken.
Du schläfst. Atmest gleichmäßig. Selbst im Schlaf hälst Du meine Hand und drückst mich fest.
Und ich?
Ich liege hellwach und starre ins Dunkle. Ich wünschte, ich könnte es Dir gleichtun.
Ich liege einfach da und denke über Vieles nach.
Dieser Moment ist ein einzigartiger Glücksmoment aber Gedanken streifen meine persönliche Stille.
Als sei es mir nicht gegönnt einmal glücklich zu sein.
Ich denke darüber nach, wie es weitergeht. Ich wünschte, ich würde ich schlafen und nicht mehr aufwachen.
Oder zumindest neben Dir aufwachen.. Für eine lange Zeit.
Anstatt es einfach zu genießen starre ich weiterhin in die Ferne.
Denke über Szenen nach, die vermutlich nie passieren werden.
Ich wünschte, Dein Atmen würde mich in den Schlaf wiegen..
Ich wünschte, Du würdest meine Hand für immer halten.

Dienstag, 8. Mai 2012

Pastel Hair

Ich bin ein riesiger Fan von "pastel Hair".. Es sieht einfach so schön aus und ist so verdammt anders. Meine liebste pastelfarbende Trägerin ist Audrey Kitching. Seit ich sie "kenne" trägt sie ihre Haare in allen möglichen Farben.
Ich selsbt hatte eine Zeit lang pastelpinke Spitzen ( Dip Dye) aber habe sie mir dann wieder braun gefärbt. Durch diesen Eintrag bin ich nun gewillt sie wiedermal zu färben hahah :D
Am besten könnt Ihr Euch die Haare mit Directions färben.

I am a HUGE fan of pastel hair. It looks so fucking different and is absolutely beautifl. my fav. pastel hair pink hottie is Audrey Kitching. She's so beautiful and she wears her hair pink, rosé and blue since I know her.
 I had pastel pink dip dye hair (I'm gonna show you when I will receive the photos). But I turn my hair back to brown but I think I'll recolour them again into pink. I miss that. Scroll down to see some impressions.
Also my fav model Charlotte Free has pink hair <3

Charlotte Free


Audrey Kitching

Sonntag, 6. Mai 2012

Dark Paradise

All my friends ask me why I stay strong
Tell 'em when you find true love it lives on
Ahhh, that's why I stay here

And there's no remedy for memory your face is
Like a melody, it won't leave my head
Your soul is haunting me and telling me
That everything is fine
But I wish I was dead

Everytime I close my eyes
It's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

Freitag, 4. Mai 2012


As some of you probably know I have my septum back. Normaly I am wearing a normal small labret piercing but today i tried the U he he

wieder bei Formspring

Aus Langeweile habe ich mir wieder einen Formspring-Acct. angelegt. Bei meinem Alten wusste ich das Passwort nicht mehr.. ahahhöjöhöhö




It seems like I know her like forever. We love and hate the same things. We can talk about everything.
I am so happy to have her <3